Dear Priscilla,
By the time you read this, I’ll be gone. It’s something I’ve needed to do for quite some time but didn’t have the heart to talk to you about. I knew you wouldn’t understand. You’d say this is just another of my fascinations and that I’d never actually leave you.
But I have. I’ve left [...]
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#352 Priscilla | The 100 Pounds Project
#353 Monique | The 100 Pounds Project
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Dear Monique,
I had myself convinced that we were good together. I took a doctor’s comment that I was “healthy but for the extra weight” and focused on the healthy part. I didn’t feel bad with you but how was I to know any better. We’d been together fo [...]
#354: Michael
Note: I’ve named this pound after a dude at the request of my friend, Melanie.
Michael,
Social pressures can do a lot to help or harm one’s sense of self and subsequent health choices. You were one of the harms.
You were the “friend” who insisted that I wasn’t fat as I continued to gain weight far past [...]
#355 Celina | The 100 Pounds Project
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Dearest Celina,
As I lay on the mattress thrown on the floor of that basement room where water froze if left in a glass overnight; you were there.
When I stared at the tower that comprised a job interview, wondered if I was really afraid of heights, and began to [...]
#356 Dominique
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Dear Dominique,
I didn’t smile much when I was with you. Like some youthful Keating I lived in direct contradiction to Ellsworth Toohey’s edict that fat people must be jolly.
It was freezing cold outside as we took our last walk together. You didn’t seem to care. Your stuff was [...]
Emotional Eating – How To Break The Cycle
Are you an emotional eater?
::raises hand::
Well, I was. The only emotions I have about eating these days are joy and exultation. I really like eating. I had a problem though. I was eating whenever I felt stressed, frustrated, or anxious. Get this, I even ate when I was disgusted with myself for losing control over [...]
#357 Haydee
Dear Haydee,
Today is my birthday. The shortest day of the year. The first day of winter. The day Druids dragged pretty girls from castles and sacrificed them in the hope that the sun would return for an other summer.
Unfortunately for you, I’m not afraid of the cold and have good low-light vision. Early on this [...]
#359 On Public Exercise
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I was embarrassed to be seen exercising in public.
That was strange to me because the process of exercising was intended to help make me feel more comfortable with being seen in public. I was intent on increasing my fitness level and sculpting my body into something I could [...]
#360 Heather
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Nobody talks about the utter loneliness of weight loss. They talk about how difficult it is to avoid unhealthy food and couch potato behavior during the holidays, but never about the mental loneliness of physical reduction.
None of the books I’ve read ever mentioned the absolute solitude that arises from [...]
#361 Alexandra
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Dear Alexandra,
You had to know this was coming.
The last time we spoke was in 2002. It was summertime in Paris. I was visiting a friend. While she was at work I passed the time exploring Paris by foot. I lost my way and found it again time after time. I [...]
The Burger
What’s in it?
The Roll:
Whole wheat flour
Water
Yeast
Ground flax seeds
Salt
Gluten (I’m not allergic so it just adds protein & helps dough rise)
The Burger:
Kidney beans
Oats
Garlic
Onion
Cumin
Pepper
Salt
The Fixings:
Baby kale (from the patio!)
Pickle (crunch!)
Ketchup (Heaven forbid I use sugary store-bought ketchup… I did.)
What does it taste like? Substantial. There’s crunch, warmth, steamy spiciness, and a rich medley of flavors that come [...]
#362 Janet
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Dear Janet,
I’m sorry if I hurt you when we parted. I was still angry about what happened with Katherine and I needed distance. I know it’s not fair to group you with all the others. I’ve tried not to. I think you’ll agree that it was just us [...]
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